Well in my 20 some odd years of being a professional I have been fired, let go, downsized, etc. It hurts no matter how humane the process. NO matter how many times they told me that “this was not performance related,” no matter how many times they said “we have no issue with your skill set,” I still felt numb, dumbfounded, and just plain sick. I wanted to rush through the paperwork and get out of there before I made a real jerk out of myself, and yelled and cried, and wanted so much to ask wether the managers and even considered taking a pay cut across the board with us, to just prevent this situation.
And that’s how I feel after three days of sitting at home and chopping wood, as hard as I possibly can just to try an relieve the sleeplessness. I take melatonin, and there is still no qieting my mind. I read my Bible, and want GOD to just get me through this situation as quickly as possible. So now I have to start asking my friends, and people I associate with to consider me for openings at companies they work. All I can say, is if I had any pride it is long gone as I struggle to budget, my children’s needs and try to allow them to keep their heads upright and not be ashamed because their father has been “let go,” and hope they will not be stigmatized.
My oldest son has already been affected since he let me know that he would no longer consider working in an engineering position as he sees all the issues I have to deal with, and does not see the good that I have accomplished.
Anyway the next series of Open Source Apps will be about games like jRisk,a dn some not so good chess games.
So now I have to find a new job. I went back to an old employer, and got no response since the secretaries filter the phone lines. I went back to the person who placed me at this job.
[tags]microface, fired, downsized[/tags]